I have one question that I have been repeatedly asking myself since I accepted the fact that I am pregnant. This question is "who will my baby be?" there has not been one day that this question has not crossed my mind in either one form or another. I find myself thinking it more and more now that I know my little baby is a girl and I have even seen pictures of her face.
There are the superficial questions like:
Will she be born with hair? What color will her hair be? Will it be super curly and nappy or smooth and wavy or possibly even straight? Since she is bi-racial, will she take after me and be super light like my 5 year old nephew, or take after her dad more and be dark skinned like my 3 year old nephew? When she gets older will she be skinny like her dads side of the family, or a little thicker like mine? Will she be a good sleeper (I really hope so she takes after me in this aspect).
Then there are deeper questions:
What will her personality be like? Will she be good in school? Will she be the "quiet" type or a talker like her aunt. Will she be athletic? If she is will she like sports like basketball or would she rather be a cheerleader and run track?
There is not one of these questions that I can answer right now. Many of them will take years before I find out the answer to them, there are obviously a couple of them that will be answered the day or soon after I deliver her this fall, and while I can't wait to find out, I am also not in a hurry for this whole pregnancy experience to be over. Every day when I see the other kids in my family they spark one of these questions. I love seeing each and every one of them showing more and more of who they are (I would say developing into who they are but I believe everybody is born exactly who they are, it just takes time for others to figure it out).
When my oldest nephew tells my sister he is staying at his grandma's and not coming home until school starts it makes me wonder, will she be a nana's baby? will she be a daddy's girl?
When my 5 year old nephew gets sad when he gets yelled at I wonder if she is going to be sensitive or more like my his little brother who acts like he don't have emotions, even though he has a baby that he takes care of all day every day.
Only time will be able to answer my question "Who is this baby inside of me?"
Wow, that's a lot of questions going through your mind! That's probably how you start worrying about this little creature and you won't ever stop again. For each question answered two new questions probably pop up. Happy parenthood! I can't wait to have that experience myself. :)
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